yeah, It's been a while. I missed this thing, sometimes it's better writing than screaming. The news is I'm sick, I have Hyperthyroidism
. I really don't think it's the big deal, but I should have a surgery and I'm so fucking scared. I don't feel bad but I was shaking a lot and I had the fastest heartbeating ever, and I even could had have a heart attack. That's a little scary, isn't it?. Now I'm taking my medications and I can't do anything!! And If I wanna hang out it's a little dangerous. SO BORING! The Dr. asked me If I was fine emotionally, and I said yes, but now I think is not that true. Last year my grandma passed away and It was really hard (well, even now), I just couldn't concentrate in my studies, and then trying to improve my qualifications again was really stressing. Did you know I lost 20 kg? well, the same kg I had gained before. I took aerobox for a relaxing time but It wasn't at all. At the end of the year my qualifications improved a lot but I had this big big fight with my dad. I'd always supported him, but what he did to me was really painful, he betrayed me. We didn't even talk for christmas, new year or my birthday. And now I gotta see him for my university matriculation, but I'll try to talk just if it's necessary. Maybe this figtht was the reason for my decompensation.
Ok, ok, it's enough of sad things. I haven't tell anything about the best day of my life!!
This is happiest memory and for this hard year it took me big happiness and peace. I told you VAMPS was coming for a Concert in Chile. 6th November I saw my favourite artist, the person I'd admired for 10 or 9 years of my life
. I'd always dream about the day I'd finally see him. To my eyes he has always been special. Some people couldn't understand this feeling, maybe they will think it's stupid, but I really loved him for all this years. In my sad and hard moments, in my happy and fun moments
he has always made me happy. You know, when You're in the sadly moment ever and there's a person who can make you smile no matter what? no matter if he's not there physically, he had always give me strength through his music.
When I don't know how to express my feelings, I always find the words in his lyrics (that for me they're poetry). He's not just a cute and beautiful person for me, He's not just a person who sings so well, I really admire him and his works. He's so talented and I really can understand what he wanna express. I really believe so. When he expressed his impressions about the concert in Chile he felt exactly how I thought he would do it. ♥I was crying more of the half of the concert, it's was such a meaningful moment that I couldn't stop crying and thinking "I can't believe he's in front on my eyes"
,"It's really him", "He's real". The other half of the concert I was smiling brightly and moving my lightstick while enjoying that wonderful day. I sang a lot, and I have so much fun. I could see him just from a meter away, and I couldn't do anything else than just smile at him trying to say "thank you so much for coming, you made my dream come true, enjoy it as much we're doing". At the last song I just stopped singing to see him quietly. That moment was magic, I really felt like there wasn't nobody else while I was looking at him smiling and enjoying those last minutes I could see him (I felt like he saw me, but come on, I think all people felt the same haha). I didn't expect anything more from that moment because he already had given me the best day ever. THANK YOU HYDE ♥
The totally full Theater. I was in the front row at the top of the photo.}
An the last one picture:
and then, when I was too suffocated I went a little back of the theather. I found me in a video of the concert, see the circle!!
P.S; My english sucks <3